🕯️ Crow Talk: “Why do I keep procrastinating things that matter to me?”

✨ Content is free—but crows like snacks.

Dear Loui,
I keep saying I want to change.
I want to get healthy. I want to work on my art. I want to clean my damn apartment.
I want to wake up early and stretch and stop doomscrolling like it’s a side hustle.

But every night I stay up too late watching people on TikTok organize their lives while I sit in the dark eating cereal out of a mug.

I tell myself I’ll start tomorrow. Then tomorrow comes and I’m “too tired” or “not in the right mindset.”
I lie to myself so smoothly I don’t even catch it until the guilt kicks in.
I’ve got unopened bills on my counter, voice memos I haven’t listened to, laundry that’s started to smell like my unprocessed emotions.

I know what I need to do. But I’m frozen.
And every time I try to start, I get overwhelmed and go right back to scrolling.

What is wrong with me?

—Avoiding Everything but Still Dreaming Big™

🪶 Loui Crow Responds:

“You’re not lazy, babe. You’re emotionally constipated and spiritually buffering.”

Oh, sweet under-caffeinated chaos goblin.
You’re not broken. You’re just in spiritual airplane mode with 37 open tabs in your brain and one tiny bar of motivation flickering like a haunted Wi-Fi signal.

Let’s be real:
You’re not “too tired.”
You’re too full—of guilt, avoidance, self-pressure, and half-finished promises stacked like dirty Tupperware in your mental fridge.

You keep saying “I’ll start tomorrow” like tomorrow is a magical creature that arrives with better discipline and cuter gym socks.
Spoiler: it’s just today in a different shirt.

You’re not stuck because you’re lazy.
You’re stuck because you’re terrified to actually become the version of yourself you say you want to be—because then you’d have no excuse to hide behind.

And guess what?
You’ve made your dreams heavier than your shame.
You’ve turned progress into a personality test you keep failing before you even take it.

So let’s stop rehearsing your failure and get you back in the damn game.

✨ Your Resolution (Let’s Unfreeze the Feed):

1. Shrink the task until your brain can’t fight it.
Don’t “clean the apartment.”
Clean the sink.
Wipe the counter.
Take one revenge-fueled trash bag out like it owes you money.

2. Set a timer and betray your brain.
Tell yourself you’ll do five minutes and then “quit.”
But don’t quit.
That’s the neurodivergent holy grail: momentum over motivation.

3. Swap shame for satire.
Don’t say “I failed again.”
Say, “Ah yes, another successful night of studying the behavioral patterns of strangers while my dreams rot in the corner.”
Then laugh. And try again.

4. Romanticize one responsible thing.
Light a candle to fold laundry.
Put on a hoodie like it’s armor.
Do your dishes while imagining you’re in a montage about turning your life around.

5. Don’t chase discipline—chase identity.
You’re not “trying to be organized.”
You’re someone who takes care of their space because it reflects the kingdom you’re building.
Even if that kingdom is currently three Post-it notes and an expired yogurt.

Listen.
You don’t need to change everything today.
You just need to prove to yourself that you’re still capable of starting.

And you are.
Even if you’re doing it while wearing yesterday’s pants and eating cereal out of a mug shaped like regret.

Get up.
Move one thing.
That’s a spell.
That’s sacred.

The dreams will wait.
But you don’t have to anymore.

— Loui Crow
Voice of Venus in Orchid
Pecking your procrastination into tiny holy pieces with love.