For years, I microdosed regularly—DMT, acid, sass, mushrooms.
Sometimes I’d go deep. Sometimes I’d take just enough to clean the kitchen like I was rearranging the cosmos.

I had visions. Downloads. Full-body rewrites.
I met beings. I stopped popping my neck after an alien told me to stretch it instead.

But I rarely wrote anything down.

And now? I’m a mom. I haven’t had access to psychedelics in years.
But I’ve seen real glimpses of how I can still get there—without drugs.

This journal is where I practice that.

You’ll find meditations, breathwork, astral practice, lucid dreaming attempts, moon rituals, DMT flashbacks, alien encounters, quantum shifts, and probably the occasional note-to-self like “Stop clenching your jaw” or “Breathe before making a decision.”

I’m not posting this because I’ve figured it all out. I’m posting it because I haven’t—but I’m getting better at it.

I’ve quantum jumped before.
Now I’m learning how to shift more often, more quickly, and with intention.

So if you’re shifting, molting, or trying to reach the stars between naps and existential dread—welcome.

This is where I document the real magic:
The kind that happens when no one’s watching.
The kind that starts with breath.

Keep scrolling for the Journals.

-Loui Crow